okay, shit…i don’t know if this is what a panic attack feels like, but i’m not feeling so great.
i’m running for the valium.
i should and could take my sleep meds too but let’s just go for the valium first.
i wasn’t feeling so hot today, just anxious so i took a valium and it fuzzed me out but now…i’m all freaky and my chest…it kind of hurts and i’m having trouble breathing…
is that a panic attack?
i’ve never had one before.
i’m just really freaking right now.
i feel all compressed like my chest and that.
and like i can’t move.
okay going to try and post this.
edit: and i’m scared too
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October 9, 2008 at 12:20 pm
Yup- sounds like a panic attack to me. I’ve had lots of them. Did it feel like you were going to jump out of your skin, too?
I hope you’re feeling better, dear.
October 9, 2008 at 5:31 pm
Stretch out your face. Yep, that’s right. Stretch your face in all kinds of ways, while you keep breathing slowly. Use the jaw, tongue, cheeks, brow, eyes, nose, ears, anything you can move, move it around. Try that to see what happens.
Also, just lay there, not moving, and say out loud every thing that you sense and feel in your body, with no interpretation.
Good luck!
October 9, 2008 at 7:39 pm
Hi mom, thanks. Yes, I did feel a bit like that–kind of along with the fear?
Yes, I am better now. I decided after the Valium to just take all of my damn sleep meds to try and knock myself out as fast as I could! I still layed in bed rather uncomfortably for a while but eventually went to sleep.
Hi escapeplans, that’s an interesting kind of idea. Just try and move any sort of thing? And yes…just talk or whatever.
If it ever happens again, I’ll try to remember that!
It was all very strange as I’ve never felt like that before. Well, except for the weird flood of emotion before the seizure that was really “panicky.” I even thought for a moment that it was that again. Another aura for a seizure but no. It wasn’t.
October 9, 2008 at 8:18 pm
It sounds like a panic attack to me also. I try to breathe through them, tell myself that all is really okay and do something physical to help burn some of the excess adrenaline like go for a walk or put on some music and dance or whatever feels good to you.
October 9, 2008 at 8:29 pm
Hi Tamara, welcome to my blog as I don’t think I’ve seen you here before. If you have been here, welcome back?
Thank you for your input as well. I kind of thought it was also.
Your comments and words also make sense too. While I was lying there I did try to do some “self-talk” and try and find something, anything that might have comforted me. Once I did feel like I could move at least a little bit, I went outside for a cigarette with a bottle of water.
After that though, I was still pretty freaky so it was right back to bed and under the duvet. Plus, I was cold!
October 11, 2008 at 11:27 pm
Panic attack is a unique impression one can get. And I’m not gonna telling you to calm down, because it’s the worst thing one can get. But one thing I know that you must get some treatment fast.
October 12, 2008 at 3:46 pm
Hi Henry, thanks for visiting my blog as I have never met you before. Welcome.
Not to worry about treatment. My brain is a full bag of tricks: Bipolar, ADD, Seizures and Migraines. I actually have a top-notch medical team so I am well taken care of.
Again, I had just never experienced one before and it was quite shocking and new. I generally have issues with Anxiety and it is more of a sort of long-lingering thing. Still unpleasant.
In a “panic” I wrote the post but indeed, in retrospect, it is always good to hear what other people experience–even if you have the experiences on a regular basis or not.
But thank you so much for your concern about my welfare. That really means a lot.