Patient Anonymous: Just Another Head Case

Hi Mastabattas, I had to Google you as your name did sound familiar and nothing came up in my search in this blog. I left you a message on my old Blogger blog re: a post I had made after I migrated to WordPress. I believe you had said something with regard to a post I made and you had brought the post to light as part of a message forum you belong to.

Yes, you did! Who would have thought keeping my old Blogger blog up for so long would have served a purpose! The thing is, your comment never made it over with the migration as you sneaked it in while I still had both blogs running at the same time.

I will email you a link to the post I wrote in question. I should probably have a peek at your blog too as I’ve been trying to find some good paramedic/EMT blogs for a while.

Take care and nice to hear from you again,
PA

Hey feartheseeds, will email email you…thanks. You’re cute.

Hi WhoreChurch, nice to meet you. Well this is quite a coincidence as I was just over on your blog. But I got a little sidetracked by one of your…*ahem*…links.

I’m sure you can figure out which one?

Thank you for the compliment on my blog, though. I very much appreciate that. I’ll try and get my attention redirected from “The Itch”–alright I gave away the link–and come back to you!

Take care,
PA

Hi paulie11, nice to meet you and thank you for reading me and taking the time to leave a comment. Thanks as well for liking my blog. That means a lot. It is comments like yours that keeps me going.

If you have been following along recently, I have been having a rough time blogging and keeping up with fellow bloggers…wow, I used to read so many.

I almost feel ashamed.

No, I am not a patient that is anti-psychiatry. I mean, I know what I need. However, I certainly won’t judge or chastise what someone else might think or feel that they might wish to do with their brain or mind?

I am completely open to discussion–as long as it remains civilized and respectful. We all have differing points of view? But by no means do we have to sink to tearing off strips if you get my meaning. I can not stand bullshit in the blogosphere. Even though I speak quite freely and it may not be to everyone’s palate, I am not rude to my readers or commenters.

And thanks for not minding me sounding like a Brit. *grin* I know a lot of my other readers don’t. It’s rather strange for a wee Canuck like me having a majority UK following but that’s just how it is…

Funny, that.

Thank you Gabriel…… *crying*

Hugs,
PA

Hi Gabriel…, yes…I shot you a whole whack of information in a very short time, didn’t I? I’m not sure what else I can tell you from what is there?

I’ll send you more and you can let me know if you have any questions?

Hi Gabriel…, okay, I’ll skip over to your link but right off the bat, whatever WP is saying doesn’t sound like it makes any sense at all!

WTF?!

I don’t use the same ISP and I am surfing just tickety-boo.

HAHAHA Gabriel…, I actually accidentally closed my browser tab after watching that… I swear, It’s because I haven’t had my tea yet *laughing*

Although, I didn’t find her that attractive anyway… Despite the action, looks are important–that may make me sound shallow but…sorry! So is the person’s brain.

A lot to ask for? I don’t think so.

Hmmm… I wonder if I could compete with that?

*PA ponders*

I’ve never had any complaints so far *wink*

Hi Gabriel…, yes…brainy-brain! I was kind of curious if the Tube was somehow altered or manipulated…huh. Oh well, whatever.

The person. Apology. Are you referring to the person who commented back when I was pulling all the Spock stuff? If so, oh yes! I directed the person to the post on my blog and they thought it was funny and well written or something.

If not, did someone else make a nasty comment about me on dame’s blog? Please advise… *laughing*

You know me! I don’t ruffle feathers! Well, I try not to…maybe if something stupid falls out of my mouth but it’s always unintentional! I’m just goofy.

Hi Gabriel…, yep…all cleared up. She felt so bad about it actually and I was, “…no…no…!” Really, the whole comment was meant for dame and to give her a laugh. I thought she knew all about my whole “Spock thing/side of my personality.”

So dame’s gone AWOL, again? I haven’t been past her pad or anyone’s lately! I’m just fucking off a bit at work now and trying to do a bit of visiting but I’d rather be back home in bed! I hope she’s okay. Maybe just time for another break?

Well, I do use a lot of self-deprecation, indeed! I am, or can be, a little goofy in person! I have my serious side of course but…well, you’d have to meet PA, perhaps. She loves to laugh so if that means some silliness along the way? So be it!

Oh Gabriel…, that is funny. Yes, we did do some of that crazy stuff in gym class although we were never in such close proximity to each other, never wore those clothes or bumped asses like in that one shot–as per the first point–close proximity *laughing*

We did do square dancing that required physical contact during certain classes. Nobody wanted to be PAs partner *PA hangs head at sad memories*

But back to the YouTube.

The music was different as well. They would play that song “Popcorn” a lot. “Doot-doot-doot-doot-doo-doo-doot…” I actually have a version by Kraftwerk.

Another bizarre thing. We were all gathered to do it first thing in the morning sometimes like we were under some wacky Communist regime or something! I guess they just wanted to teach us the importance of exercise? I don’t recall being brainwashed in any way… *laughing* Oh, that’s probably how it works, right? You don’t remember.

I don’t recall being abducted by aliens either but sometimes I do wake up with odd marks on my body… Oh, that’s probably me just going out and getting drunk and doing something stupid–and not remembering the next morning. Kidding.

Hi Sara, thanks for coming by and welcome–to you as well! I seem to be picking up some new visitors or (commenters at least.) Funny how that happens in spurts around here!

I don’t know if this is weird timing but I just visited you on Friday. However, I had to dash out of work so I didn’t have much time to read you. I’m going to have to bookmark you here as well on this crazy old computer as I don’t know if my old ones will stick after the data dump on my new MacBook when I go get it.

Anyway, if you didn’t find it elsewhere, as I explained in another post, “Merlin” came up as I wanted him to cast a spell over me with his “magic wand” and “fix me!” *laughing*

You take care and I’ll try and pop by and read you more soon.
PA

Hi truthman30, thanks for stopping by my blog. I must say I have never seen a blog that is so focused upon one med! Wow. I also checked your “About” page and read some of your comments. Did you notice that quite a few were spam? I actually recognised some of them as I had received them as well–they are sites semi-related to car dealerships.

True, some of these meds can come with side effects that are rather bothersome but I don’t know if they will kill you. I’d remain more on the side that if you have a serious mental illness and if you didn’t take the meds that you needed, you’d be in a position where you might kill yourself–been there, attempted that. However, that’s just me. And maybe a few other people might feel the same way?

Hi Gabriel…. I always look at other peoples’ blogs when they comment if they have one. Just out of curiosity to see what they are about and what the writers have to say. Also, I’m a silly little bugger and want to know if they’ve blogrolled me *laughing* Well, no! Really! If they have, then I like to say thank you and then come back and have a read. Or even if they haven’t blogrolled me, they still might have good things to say.

I know…I do seem to attract some goodies, don’t I? I am not quite sure why. I definitely do have my stance on meds and mental craziness. However, I am not militant. I have said many times that if someone chooses to stop taking meds, that is fine. And we all know Furious Seasons and what he has to say. I’m on his blogroll! And he’s not all crazy anti-med! Even he says so.

I will also admit that these folks are at least polite. That is a good thing. I’m not getting anyone screaming at me or any trolls (oooh…did I just jinx myself?) Well after all, as said above, PA is not militant and she is a “polite blogger?” Taking the Canadian stereotype over to her blog? And PA is polite by nature anyway.

Hell, she would even be polite to a troll!

Hey swvalley/Sean, nice to meet you and thanks for popping over and responding back. Wow, that’s awesome that picture is you. I am so impressed. It is, again, a fantastic photo!

I’m wondering, did you take it? I’ve tried to do self portraits and sometimes…

…well, with photography you usually have to shoot a lot to get a “good shot” but even more to get a great shot.

I think yours is GREAT. Even better that it was published when you were teaching. What a better way to relate to your students!

Definitely Hugs,
PA

I’m sorry chimpy, this comment got lost in the shuffle somewhere! Yay for scientifically proven findings, eh? Thanks for the wee PubMed link.

This doesn’t surprise me at all. Actually, where it did make me “wander of to” (sorry, that was a really bad AD(H)D joke) was to the notion of not having any caffeine before EEGs for seizures. Indeed, you are supposed to be in a “relaxed” state but what caught me about that link was the issue of the “critical fusion flicker threshold.”

Whoa. That’s kind of neat. Caffeine might make you less susceptible to photic seizures? That may be a bit of a stretch but who knows?

Take care, dear and again…sorry for the delay.

*PA pads off to make a cuppa now…wink*

Hi Wayward Radish, thank you for liking my blog. As far as Attachment Therapy? Well, first I will state that I am not in any way a qualified practitioner in any form–as you can probably gather from my blog’s name? And when I speak of things such as this: Therapy, Medicine etc… I like to always use that disclaimer.

Attachment Therapy is highly controversial and that is a no-brainer. I think that has been well established by now. I’ve taken a look at your blog and even from your comment left here, you have called it a “lethal epidemic.” Now, that is not to say that I am disagreeing with you in any form, casting any stones etc… However, it indicates to me just what a powder keg it may be?

And also, when I was looking at your blog, I didn’t see the typical “About” page that a lot of bloggers have. I was kind of confused but I respect how we all blog and your choice to speak out in the manner that you have chosen–regarding the “lethality” of the therapeutic process.

Attachment Therapy has been and is somewhat/can be tied to Attachment Theory. And yet, there is no link and even Attachment “Theory” is just that. A theory. There was one time I blogged about Attachment Theory and it has been within the realm of AD(H)D which I have (specifically–ADD Inattentive Type.)

Here is the link to that post and it was really only about one M.D. who posed that as his views–along the lines of the theory re: AD(H)D. Not Attachment Therapy. I am only bringing this up as you have asked me what I “think” and what, perhaps, I have written?

http://patientanonymous.wordpress.com/2007/10/14/add-smackdown/

Now, in no way was the M.D., Gabor Mate, in favour of Attachment Therapy for all of us with AD(H)D! Christ no! That was just something he thought. Again, theoretical and he wasn’t anti-med, either!

Okay, so back to your original question. What do I think? Well, I’m not an “expert” as I told you but I really don’t think it’s all that hot. Kids are fragile. So are adults but children haven’t fully developed yet. If they have psych issues…fuck me…they can be all over the map!

Attachment Therapy is often used with kids that are…well…”troublesome?” Please. Apart from kids being fragile (with psych issues) they are fragile physically too. Shit, so are adults. I don’t know if you’ve read about my physical health but I’m not all that fine and dandy as I weight 98lbs.! That pretty much classifies me as a kid, size wise? And I’m nuts?

Anyway, I’m not going to get on a bandwagon about it. I really don’t know that much or enough about it as I’ve never seen it in action. You can hear a lot of shit about yes…kids dying and screaming in pain and being “tortured.” If that is the case, then yes, it is right fucked.

The only thing that I FIRMLY (pun intended) believe in for kids (and bloody adults because I know I’d benefit from it!!!) is Temple Grandin’s “Squeeze Machine,” if you choose to call it that.

It has never been scientifically studied but she has done her own work with it and it has had fabulous results. I’ve written a post on that, too. Also as an adult, I have tied myself up to soothe myself to go to sleep.

That’s very Spectrum/AD(H)D and very me. Also, it is NOT harmful! And Temple’s on the fucking Spectrum anyway so gimme a break! It’s not like she doesn’t know what she’s talking about!

Anyway, I hope this gives you something, some answer/s that you were looking for?

Best,
PA

Hello Gabriel…, nice to meet you and welcome to my blog. I’m so glad you’ve been reading for a while now and have felt comfortable to comment! Please come back and do so anytime!

HAHAHA!

I had to go back and check EP as I couldn’t remember how they worked. I got picked up by a bunch of sites around then *laughing* Yay me as a “Featured Blogger!” Why me as a “Featured Blogger?” is actually more apt.

Anyway, if memory serves, it is an entirely “Anonymous” Project and that is why it is unique. That is why before I added the Wellsphere .jpg into the widget, I had written above: “Hang Out Here and be Anonymous Like Me.”

My “Experience” with “Experience?” Well, I really have no clue. I’ve checked my referrals for the last quarter (I was contacted by them in June so that would do it, right?) and they didn’t show.

Now, I think the referral would come from someone clicking directly on the blog link? Your current post? There is also a link to post a comment directly on the wee space of your blog shown but there is a “post continuance.” I mean, it’s not like anyone would write a post a few sentences long. And the link goes directly to your comment section of your own blog. So the idea is also to drive traffic to your blog. Therefore, still a referral, right?

So, I don’t know what to say. No one has outrightly said, “I found you through EP!” Granted, no has said, “I found you through “Wellsphere,” either. Although I do see Wellsphere referrals.

They have the three groups that they have slotted me into via the widget on my sidebar and if you click on any of those, there is a link on their left sidebar that says Related Blogs. They post them (your choice by link) either by Most Recent or Most Popular. I am seven out of 15.

Here I go sounding like a Borg again…

So does that help at all?

Let me know if you need any more info or have any more questions.

Oh Hannah, lovely to meet you. Welcome and thank you for blogrolling me. I feel very flattered. I am also flattered that you have been reading for a while and have been enjoying my blather?

And thanks for the “vote” for calling my iPod “Godot.” Yes, it has rather stuck in my mind since I wrote the post earlier today.

Alright, my iPod is now known as Godot.

I’ve Bookmarked you so I can come back and hopefully keep up with you too!

Take care,
PA

Hi Pink, nice to meet you and welcome to my blog.

I see you have just started yours so welcome to the blogosphere, too. I think I have a comment or something for your latest post? My brain is a wee bit mushy after being “Wobbly Legs Seizure Girl,” last night. I may need some more tea in order to tackle writing something remotely coherent! So if it doesn’t come up too soon after writing this, I’ll get there!

EDIT: It’s already taking me forever to compose this and make it sound remotely coherent. *rolls eyes*

And completely off topic, you are my 47th comment here. I use an external mouse when I am home (as I am now), so holy, scroll central. Plus, I think I may change this page a bit. Hmmm. I don’t know.

Also, I had to laugh when I went to your blog and read your “full name.” The first thing that popped into my (daft) head was the pop star Pink! But then I saw the “Floyd” you added! How funny was it that we were both on the train of thought to do with music!

Thank you so much for your compliment about my blog. That really means a lot. True, every day can be a battle indeed!

I think my blog can serve as a journal very much for me. I’ve started writing every day this year due to Blog365 and I thought that would be exhausting (although I must admit I have tossed up TouYoubes and boring crap at times.)

However, that may be more to me just being tired–not necessarily anything to due with Blog365. Or it may be. Regardless, I simply may have not felt inspired to write. I’m not sure. However, I may still have just wanted to blog so I somehow felt the need to post something!

I guess we’ll find out December 31 2008, eh? See if I keep it up? *wink*

As far as daily, pen-to-paper journals, therapists have always encouraged me to keep them but I just don’t have the…oh, words, where are you??? (sorry a bit Postictal now…)

…I just don’t have the motivation, diligence…I don’t know…whatever it takes to keep it up. I think a lot of it has to do with the ADD and also, I’ve never really done well in therapy anyway! *laughing*

And I procrastinate like you would not believe!

I suppose you could say you needn’t write every day but somehow to me, I think that would defeat the purpose. I think you would need the consistency in order to “capture” just what is going on. Don’t you agree?

Take care and come back anytime to join the wee circus, here!

Best,
PA

Hi Gabriel…. I’m still awake here and hanging in. This might be the only comment I get to though as my brain is feeling rather fried, however the “issue” you have brought to my attention is driving me crazy! Even though I am feeling brain fried.

But first, thank you so much for being happy for me. *grin* I look forward to yet another “Royal Order of the Cheese Title Ceremony.” *laughing* I am sorry about your mood poopiness though. Blah. *hugs*

Now this blog WP/Twitter battle. Twitter kind of sucks actually but I thought it might be fun. I have turned off my feed for now. I didn’t think removing my widget would do shite as it’s just a .jpg and a link? I mean, nothing really “connected?”

Do you think? I don’t know…that seems kind of a stretch.

I did notice that in one of my recent posts, the entire post wasn’t hyperlinked. Some of it still remained in black and as the post itself. Hmmm…

Not to mention, my older posts from months back are being hyperlinked to Twitter as well. Okay. They aren’t fed to Twitter as I just signed up.

So, I’m kind of thinking that it’s WP that is doing something freaky. And although I did have another seizure tonight that’s got me all screwy in the head, I had two tabs of PA open and even though I was already logged on, WP made me log in again.

So…is WP doing something freaky with my Twitter?

I’ll leave the feed off for now and hopefully something will fix over a bit of time. I’ve got the feed now set up for updates ever 30 minutes. Although I’ve turned it off… Duh. You see?

Brain dead.

Let’s give it some time and if it’s all right fucked later, we’ll try and work on it? Contact either WP or Twitter (or both) and say WTF??? The content of my posts are fine–there’s no HTML for me to edit.

PA
xo

Hi nadamadison and Mea Madison. I never got to you last night as I was out and sooo tired by the time I got home. I tried but I just about fell asleep on baby MacBook.

Yes, the first thing about MC that came into my head was a mic’ but I couldn’t help myself from being dumb and tossing the MC Hammer stupidity in there.

What an interesting picture. Bouncy, gay, pill pushers? It sounds more like going to a gay nightclub and sniffing “poppers” or something. Sorry, bad humour again. Ugh. And don’t worry about being a dork. You’re corresponding with one of the biggest ones ever.

No, you don’t scare me at all. Don’t worry about that. It’s okay. Thank you about my candid sense of humour. I use it a lot on my blog–my sense of humour is way out there and so much, in fact, people have misinterpreted it at times. I’ve had to explain just how it “works” and how I write. For example I continually use self-deprecation!

Sex(uality?) Labels get me so irked at times. However, they must be used–at times? *shrug* You are attracted to whomever you are attracted to; you fall in love with whomever you fall in love with. For me, it’s women. I have been with men–just no more of that. They don’t have any “effect” in that area for me. Only women do. It’s as simple as that. For me, anyway.

Funny about the “looks” thing and the “hot” thing. “Beauty is in the eye of the beholder?” I really don’t think I’m anything special at all so if someone compliments me, I’m like: “What the hell are you thinking???”

A cancer patient? You must be rather thin? I am too but from actually real gastro problems. I am short 5″2′ (barely) but jumped right down to 90lbs. a few years ago for no reason. I am now holding at 100lbs. at least. That is still the smallest I’ve ever been but I’ve always been pretty small anyway. But that still is too low.

“That sounds so lesbian…” Oh, you make me laugh. Well, I am a freak of nature but in a good way? I’ll try not to convert you either as all of us “evil homosexuals” do, you know. *rolls eyes*

Where am I from? Well, I remain anonymous but I know some bloggers “offblog.” I usually develop a relationship with them that way–I don’t post where I am from other than the above on this Page–Canada.

Why I admitted myself to hospital. I got laid off from my job over a year ago and have been under continual stress, health problems (basically my seizures have gotten way out of control but other sicknesses too) I have been self-medicating too much, a cascade of events over a week or two threw me over the edge (or close to it) so time to get to a safe place?

I don’t mind sharing any of this. I mean god, this was my seventh hospitalization. I know the deal. Yours sounds like it was a real blast, though. Crikey!

Wow! Thanks for the offer of sending me a pic. You’re sweet for doing that. I look forward to getting it!

Okay, Mea Madison, onto your next comment.

Please don’t worry about the brevity of your comment here. Actually, these long comments read more like emails, I think! Oh well, if people are reading them (I am seeing some views of this Page so people are!) they might be finding this interesting?

Speaking of email…I think this should be discussed that way. You sounded like you wanted to talk but then you became reticent and distant.

I don’t mind talking about things if you want to. However, this sounds like it may be a bit complicated so email might be better. Also, if it’s personal, you may feel more comfortable doing it that way?

So, I’ll shoot you off an email and maybe we can start talking if you’d like, okay?

x

Hi journey2balance. Nice to meet you and welcome to my blog. Well, now. VERY grateful? *grinning and blushing* Thank you.

I am VERY flattered! *laughing*

Please feel free to look around and I hope you like what you see.

You take care as well,
PA