New MP3

October 19, 2009 in ADD, Asperger's, BPD, Bipolar Disorder, Blogging, Cutting, Health, Literary, MP3 of the Moment, Medicine, PTSD, Patient Advocacy, Political, Self Medication, Therapy, You Decide

I seem to be in a bit of a blogging funk, which is fine.  It happens.  I’ve been trying to do a bit more personal writing, but I’m not so sure I’m producing much there, either! At least I’m thinking about it, though.  However, I still don’t want my blog to go “stale.”  Things just [...]

I Know. You Have Been Very, Very Patient. It’s Almost Done!

October 5, 2009 in ADD, Asperger's, BPD, Bipolar Disorder, Blogging, Facts About Patient Anonymous, Head Injury, Health, Life is Stranger Than Fiction, Linkbaiting, Migraines, PTSD, Patient Advocacy, Political, Seizures, Technology Sucks, Therapy

Patience? That is for those of you who have been with me since at least the summer of 2008.  You may recall that I had the privilege of visiting a Wild Animal Rescue/Sanctuary.  I shot about 5,000 pictures (slight exaggeration.)
This was (is) a very, very, special place.  Not only had the animals been rescued (sometimes [...]

How Communication Can Actually Be Painful

August 25, 2009 in ADD, Asperger's, BPD, Bipolar Disorder, Cutting, Facts About Patient Anonymous, Health, Hospitalizations, Medicine, Neat Neuro Stuff, PTSD, Patient Advocacy, Seizures, Self Medication, Spock, Therapy, You Decide

To begin with, it is one thing not to be able to, or have difficulty at times, verbally expressing how you feel.  There is a term for it called Alexithymia.  According to the Wiki link, it is a “personality trait.”  However, since it can affect so many people in, shall we say, a “broad spectrum” [...]

This Weekend Is Not Beginning Well

August 22, 2009 in ADD, Asperger's, BPD, Bipolar Disorder, Cranky, Facts About Patient Anonymous, Health, Medicine, Meds, Migraines, PTSD, Seizures, The Tummy Blues, Therapy

I had an uber-meltdown at J.’s last night.  I don’t even know what happened.  I don’t know why I’m so fritzy about going to the observatory.  I know I had a freak out before with all the people geeking out and it becoming “Astronomy Chaos” but now? Let’s try and answer some of this stuff.  [...]

All Tangled Up

August 8, 2009 in ADD, Asperger's, BPD, Bipolar Disorder, Facts About Patient Anonymous, Health, Medicine, PTSD, Seizures, Therapy

Alright.  That was either a really good post title or a really awful one.  I think I need to work on my post titles.
Regardless, here is a Tangle®!
I tried to “pose” it artistically in a “vertical manner.”  However, they don’t necessarily look like that.  I guess the best way to describe the basic ones is [...]

The Afternoon After

August 7, 2009 in ADD, Asperger's, BPD, Bipolar Disorder, Cutting, Facts About Patient Anonymous, Health, PTSD, Patient Advocacy, Seizures, Self Medication, Therapy

I’d say “The Morning After” as in the typified, hangover idiom but no, my “Cutting Hangovers” are always in the afternoon.  There are several reasons for this.
95% of my cuttings are done at god knows what hour of the early mornings so, well…I guess you could literally say there is no “Morning After.”  It’s “Morning [...]

Ashamed to Blog

August 7, 2009 in ADD, Asperger's, BPD, Bipolar Disorder, Blogging, Cutting, Facts About Patient Anonymous, Health, PTSD, Patient Advocacy, Seizures, Self Medication, Therapy

I wrote a post about what I called Sane Face Blogging. This is different though. “Sane Face Blogging” is when you put on mask, your brave face and you just do it!
Apologies for the Nike reference.  Are they still using that?
Ashamed? Different.  Deeper.
My blog is really honest if you didn’t know that already.  [...]

God Bless Merlin #2 and Hospital? You Can Burn in HELL!

July 16, 2009 in ADD, Asperger's, BPD, Bipolar Disorder, Cranky, Cutting, Facts About Patient Anonymous, Head Injury, Health, Hospitalizations, Life is Stranger Than Fiction, Medicine, Meds, Migraines, PTSD, Patient Advocacy, Political, Profanity, Seizures, Therapy, You Decide

Let’s start with the Deities and then move on to the Demons, shall we?
I saw Merlin #2 a few days ago.  We had a relatively short appt.  Initially, we talked about the change to my new 300mg of Seroquel/Quetiapine XR, side effects that I have already blogged about and my mood(s.)  I said on that [...]

I Repent

July 8, 2009 in ADD, Asperger's, BPD, Bipolar Disorder, Cutting, Facts About Patient Anonymous, Head Injury, Health, Hospitalizations, Medicine, Meds, PTSD, Patient Advocacy, Profanity, Seizures, Self Medication, Therapy, You Decide

Now I know what it feels like.  At least to a degree? It’s fucking awful.  And thus, I repent.  Sincerely.
You see, I have called people during suicide attempts and what not to “say goodbye.”  In retrospect, even at the time you are quite obviously out of your mind, I have realized that these are not [...]

Dropped Connections

March 26, 2009 in ADD, Asperger's, BPD, Bipolar Disorder, Health, Literary, PTSD, Therapy, You Decide

Blunted.  Silent.  No chance of reaching the outside, nor the inside.  I sit and freeze and bide my time.  The old familiar spaces, those empty, wasted places, all the similar faces.  They slip in and out.
To live alone and not hear your own voice for days is a strange thing.  You forget how it sounds; [...]