New MP3

October 19, 2009 in ADD, Asperger's, BPD, Bipolar Disorder, Blogging, Cutting, Health, Literary, MP3 of the Moment, Medicine, PTSD, Patient Advocacy, Political, Self Medication, Therapy, You Decide

I seem to be in a bit of a blogging funk, which is fine.  It happens.  I’ve been trying to do a bit more personal writing, but I’m not so sure I’m producing much there, either! At least I’m thinking about it, though.  However, I still don’t want my blog to go “stale.”  Things just [...]

I Am Very Scared Right Now

October 12, 2009 in ADD, Asperger's, Bipolar Disorder, Blogging, Cutting, Facts About Patient Anonymous, Head Injury, Health, Hospitalizations, Life is Stranger Than Fiction, Medicine, Migraines, PTSD, Patient Advocacy, Religion, Seizures, The Tummy Blues, Therapy, You Decide

I’m sure I’ve felt this scared at some point in my life before.  Perhaps? Maybe? I don’t know.  Perhaps not.  All I know is that I am very, very scared right now.  I was chatting with a couple of bloggers last night, and emailed another one this morning who have gotten various bits of this [...]

A Bit More Change, A Bit More Me

October 6, 2009 in ADD, Asperger's, Bipolar Disorder, Blogging, Cutting, Facts About Patient Anonymous, Head Injury, Health, Hospitalizations, Humour, Life is Stranger Than Fiction, Medicine, Migraines, PTSD, Patient Advocacy, Political, Seizures, Technology Sucks, Therapy, WordPress Sucks, You Decide

Take a look at my outermost sidebar.  Notice anything different?
Just something for people to have a gander at, if they choose? It’s all true, I swear! Plus, if you like legalese, it’s all there with the rollover! Apologies for the graphic.  Hard to display “white on white.”  I didn’t really want to muck about with [...]

How Communication Can Actually Be Painful

August 25, 2009 in ADD, Asperger's, BPD, Bipolar Disorder, Cutting, Facts About Patient Anonymous, Health, Hospitalizations, Medicine, Neat Neuro Stuff, PTSD, Patient Advocacy, Seizures, Self Medication, Spock, Therapy, You Decide

To begin with, it is one thing not to be able to, or have difficulty at times, verbally expressing how you feel.  There is a term for it called Alexithymia.  According to the Wiki link, it is a “personality trait.”  However, since it can affect so many people in, shall we say, a “broad spectrum” [...]

The Afternoon After

August 7, 2009 in ADD, Asperger's, BPD, Bipolar Disorder, Cutting, Facts About Patient Anonymous, Health, PTSD, Patient Advocacy, Seizures, Self Medication, Therapy

I’d say “The Morning After” as in the typified, hangover idiom but no, my “Cutting Hangovers” are always in the afternoon.  There are several reasons for this.
95% of my cuttings are done at god knows what hour of the early mornings so, well…I guess you could literally say there is no “Morning After.”  It’s “Morning [...]

Ashamed to Blog

August 7, 2009 in ADD, Asperger's, BPD, Bipolar Disorder, Blogging, Cutting, Facts About Patient Anonymous, Health, PTSD, Patient Advocacy, Seizures, Self Medication, Therapy

I wrote a post about what I called Sane Face Blogging. This is different though. “Sane Face Blogging” is when you put on mask, your brave face and you just do it!
Apologies for the Nike reference.  Are they still using that?
Ashamed? Different.  Deeper.
My blog is really honest if you didn’t know that already.  [...]

God Bless Merlin #2 and Hospital? You Can Burn in HELL!

July 16, 2009 in ADD, Asperger's, BPD, Bipolar Disorder, Cranky, Cutting, Facts About Patient Anonymous, Head Injury, Health, Hospitalizations, Life is Stranger Than Fiction, Medicine, Meds, Migraines, PTSD, Patient Advocacy, Political, Profanity, Seizures, Therapy, You Decide

Let’s start with the Deities and then move on to the Demons, shall we?
I saw Merlin #2 a few days ago.  We had a relatively short appt.  Initially, we talked about the change to my new 300mg of Seroquel/Quetiapine XR, side effects that I have already blogged about and my mood(s.)  I said on that [...]

Why?

July 9, 2009 in ADD, Asperger's, Bipolar Disorder, Blogging, Cutting, Facts About Patient Anonymous, Health, Life is Stranger Than Fiction, Literary, Patient Advocacy, Seizures, Therapy

Why can I not sleep? I may be cycling.
Why am I cooking dinner for breakfast while I cannot sleep? Because I need to eat.
Why is that a futile effort? Because I was hungry but I no longer am…because I am tired.
Why can I not sleep for the second time? Because if I do, I might [...]

I Repent

July 8, 2009 in ADD, Asperger's, BPD, Bipolar Disorder, Cutting, Facts About Patient Anonymous, Head Injury, Health, Hospitalizations, Medicine, Meds, PTSD, Patient Advocacy, Profanity, Seizures, Self Medication, Therapy, You Decide

Now I know what it feels like.  At least to a degree? It’s fucking awful.  And thus, I repent.  Sincerely.
You see, I have called people during suicide attempts and what not to “say goodbye.”  In retrospect, even at the time you are quite obviously out of your mind, I have realized that these are not [...]

Hospitalization #7 – Part VI – Non-Verbal Question and Massively Triggered PA

June 24, 2009 in ADD, Asperger's, Bipolar Disorder, Cranky, Cutting, Facts About Patient Anonymous, Health, Hospitalizations, Life is Stranger Than Fiction, Medicine, Meds, Patient Advocacy, Seizures, Therapy

NOTE: All links to this series may be found at the end of these posts.
Monday, June 15, 2009
Is there a difference between “not being able to talk” and “not wanting to talk?” Is it the same thing for an Aspie or anyone else on the Spectrum? I know I’ve had a feeling deep down, way [...]