Archive for August 23rd, 2008


Last night I had a bit of a flip out.  I seemed to sink into a pit of Depression, felt like cutting…oh my frickin’…

No, I didn’t.

I slept.  I woke up.  Felt semi-human but then?

Later on something very strange happened.  A somewhat “newer” form of dissociation? I just lost any manner of focus or thinking…  Stop.   Stare.  Everything comes to a halt.  Can’t move.

Different from the DP/DR experienced with my seizures.

I went out with P. for dinner.  I didn’t know if I could make it or not.  I thought it would prove a good distraction and it did.  But now that I am alone again, I have slipped back into that place where I was earlier.

My brain is fucked.

Too much “stress?”

Thank you folks for the lovely comments recently.  I will respond as soon as I can.  Hopefully tomorrow as I need–fuck, again NEED–to get going.