Archive for August 27th, 2008


Although I did go see Merlin #1 today. I had to drag myself out of bed to do it but yep. Of course I went though! Shit. If there was ever a time for an appointment it would be today?

Ah…”That Old Black Magic…” Yeah, right. “That Old Black HOLE.”

That old black magic HOLE has me in its spell, that old black magic HOLE that you weave so HAS ME DROWNING IN ITS well.

Those icy fingers up and down my spine. (NOTE: This line is fine.)

That same old witchcraft BULLSHIT when your eyes meet mine MY MOODS FUCKING DECLINE.

The same old tingle NAUSEA that I feel inside, and then that elevator starts its ride LYING PATHETIC AND FOETAL ON MY SIDE.

And down and down I go, round and round I go, like a leaf that’s caught in the tide. (NOTE: Yeah, this one is okay too…who cares?)

I should stay away IN BED, but what can SO THAT I WILL do? !!!

I hear your name ONE THOUGHT: and I‘m aflame JUST WANT TO ROT.

Aflame with such a burning desire FEVER that only your kiss can put out the fire. WHERE THE HELL DID I PUT THE MEAT CLEAVER?!

For you’re the lover BITCH I have (DREADED) waited(ING) for, the (SOULLESS) mate that fate had me created for.

And every time your lips meet mine, darling, down and down I go, round and round I go. (NOTE: Fine again.)

In a spin, loving HATING the spin I’m in, under DOWN IN THAT that old black magic HOLE called love. NOT AGAIN.

So, I’m feeling a little depressed today. Can you tell? Heh. I’m thinking I should be feeling much better. Oh, that’s quite funny, isn’t it? Yes, you “should” your way out of your Mood Disorder. Indeed. Earlier on, I had a bit more of that odd Dissociation business like on the weekend. Just couldn’t think, focus, move. It seems to have passed.

I am really hoping this will pass too. Not linger too long? Like, pass by tonight? Tomorrow? This is just too much. I can’t afford to be out of commission. Not like this and certainly not any worse!

Maybe I’ll go try and stare at some employment ads?

I just want to go away. And I don’t mean, like…that kind of “go away.” No, I still intend to hang around the planet. I just have another destination in mind… *sigh*