Archive for August 28th, 2008


For the first time ever, I have actually modified my blog and gone against my “Prime Directive.” At least perhaps to a degree?

I have not deleted my last post about my recent cutting but since it seems to be causing rather a fervour, great upset, people telling me how fucked up it was (and perhaps by extension how fucked up I may be?) being accused of how I was seeking attention–and I very much got it–how it will encourage people to cut and how I will certainly encourage people to “out-do” me…

You know what? It’s now motherfucking Password Protected.

And you know what even further? I may or may not even bloody well give you the goddamn password!!!

There. Are you all motherfucking satisfied now?

Are you all over the crazy as a loon moon to see me agree with you that it’s “so fucked up???”

Great. Thanks much.

And truly thanks to the people who have been supporting me throughout this. You know who you are. Even if you don’t read this blog and are in real life–thanks to you too!

PA completely admitting that she did something “fucked up” having a wee strop. I apologise profusely. Please forgive her as she a) is actually human and b) has mental health problems. That will make her do “fucked up things” from time to time.

And PLEASE do not start getting into it all over again on this post either. I have enough stress in my life as it is! Why in hell did you think I cut in the first place people?????


I just can not get these two songs out of my head! Which is good because they get me kind of…moving?

I had never even heard of them before but thanks to Mac Guru who sent me a file of, wow…between 500 and 600 songs? They were there.  At least some of the songs in the file are repeated which is sort of bad and sort of good.  It means that there is less new music for me to hear but then it means I’m not going out of my head so much trying to get through the monstrosity of the file!

So, anyway.   Junior Boys.  Canadian.  I just love the guy’s voice.

The first is “Double Shadow” and the second is “The Equalizer.”  Now posted for your ears on MP3 of the Moment.