Archive for October 12th, 2008


Alright, Madame Seizurella© (that gives you a hint!) had her first day of school yesterday.  Fuck me.  I thought I was going to go insane.  No, it was brutal.  I felt like the guy was speaking another language (well, he was–code!) For those that don’t know, I am currently taking a beginner’s web design course.  I was also trying to take notes and was getting so confused, my Dysgraphia was out of control! By the end of it I thought I was going to completely collapse–both brain and body.

Then, I had to meet J.  We were going to try and install my CS3 but apparently it is unbelievably huge and will take hours.  I was also supposed to meet a friend of his to maybe talk about job prospects.  But then J. announced he invited some other friends.  I really didn’t know if I had the energy to “be social.”  I actually didn’t have the energy, really.

Then…here we go! Rapid eye blinking, some consciousness altered, drooling.  Immediate post-“ick”tal© laughter.  Everyone was pretty much gone so J.’s friend drove me home before he did J.  When I got home, I had a pounding post-“ick”tal© headache and then I became really irritable and angry.

Today, woke up feeling depressed.  I’m kind of out of it.  My tummy is upset.  Headache? A bit of one but nothing I can’t deal with. Maybe not so bad, I guess.  I need to make this brief now as it’s Thanksgiving Weekend here and J. wants me over for dinner plus we have to still install CS3.  He has a network set up at his place so faster? I should have left earlier but I have been moving rather slowly (obviously…I seized last night?)

I am thinking I need to run through my Seizures Category on my blog and write everything down and maybe send it to neuro? He makes ridiculously long follow ups (like six to seven months), so I am not due to see him until December.  I don’t even think he knows about me getting laid off, so increased stress and such.  I can’t remember when I last saw him.  It was after the “Kiss the Pavement” one which necessitated the Sleep Deprived EEG and med changes.  And I heard nothing after the EGG so presumably nothing there.  No surprise.  They rarely–hardly ever–catch anything!

I’m having too many of these.  It’s not good.

Anyway, better get on with it…it takes forever to get to J.’s.