Archive for September 1st, 2009


Because arifaery likes her “Daily Dose” of PA (god only knows why), I’ll at least write this.  Attempting anything else may be severely futile.

I AM SO FUCKING PISSED OFF WITH MY BRAIN!!!

I have said before that I really do like to take my diagnoses in stride.  I try and accept what they are, how they affect my life, and that I must live with them for the remainder of my life.

Today is not one of those days (just in case you couldn’t tell from me screaming in block caps.)

I am still feeling all brain fried and loopy! My head is starting to hurt, so that means my eyes are starting to go! I’m nauseous and pukey and rather tired–all of this from a seizure that I may or may not have had!

Now, I don’t think this is exactly justifiable in my world.  In fact, I think it is downright abusive! If my brain is making me sick, I want to know about it! Further, I want to know why it is making me sick!

I mean, crap, you know? If I didn’t have enough goddamn, bloody problems with all my redonculous diagnoses already: ADD Inattentive Type, Asperger’s, Bipolar Disorder, Epilepsy, Migraines, GERD (okay that’s a tummy issue, but whatever.)  So, what next? Do I have to deal with my brain playing “tricks” on me? What, some sort of Hide and Seek? An Easter Egg Hunt?

Alright, brain.  Let’s sit down and have a little tete-a tete, here.  Well, that doesn’t make sense (thanks to YOU!) as I don’t have two heads.  You’re just screwing with me further to probably make me think I do.  So, a chat, then? Plus, I think I’ll lie down, courtesy of you making me feel like shit! You can continue bouncing around, or keep thinking up new games for us to play, or whatever it is you’re doing!

PA: “Brain, why am I feeling like this? It seems distinctly, even completely, like I am post-“ick”tal.”©

Silence.

PA: “Uhhh…brain.  Are you listening? Are you there?”

Silence.

PA: “Brain?”

Oh, so I have no brain? Well, that’s a debatable point.  However, in this case, I guess this is another “little game” I’m dealing with? Yes.  It’s called “The Guessing Game!” Not quite like Hide and Seek or an Easter Egg Hunt.  No, it’s more complicated.

Ages 10 and Above.  Adults Included.  Minimum 1,000 Players Required.