This Explains Everything!
It’s also potentially a bit scary. For one reason, I’ll have to be checking my calendar.
I couldn’t understand why I was verging on a panic attack yesterday while going to my pharmacy. It’s only about a 15 minute walk away. I don’t get panic attacks so I’m not even sure if what happened would even qualify. From what others have said, maybe? Probably? Well, let’s try and describe it and see if it “qualifies.”
Heart Racing, Dizzy, Overwhelming Nervousness (Anxiety?) Fear (just a little, but odd, vague.) Wanting to just run; get my meds and race home (why I did not know, some sense of comfort at home?) I think that’s all. Yes? I kind of think that fits some criteria. Yes?
Also, in terms of “thinking” I’m beyond extremely fogged today. This post is long, so please excuse that, and any extraneous material because of “foggy brain.” Although, “foggy brain” is part of why this explains everything!
There were some other things that seemed pretty strange yesterday, apart from the panic. When I was out, the sun seemed almost blinding! I’ve had issues with the sun before, even though I have lenses that darken when exposed to sunlight. Well, not much help there.
sun + panic = fear of having one big, wham-bam seizure, right in front of everyone passing by. Yes, I honestly was that concerned.
I have had a couple of seizures involving a huge surge of panic as part of a Simple partial. Afterward, it’s moved on to something else. The worst event was first the panic, then more of my “regular” Simple partial tricks. Following that, I had significantly altered consciousness, loss of muscle tone in a few areas of my body, however, such extreme myoclonic jerking in the vast majority of the rest, I fell off a bench outside, despite leaning on a wall behind me. I got a good bonk on the bean with that one.
That’s a bit scary (not the seizure–yesterday.) Going for a short walk in my own neighbourhood to a familiar place, getting all panicky and then worrying about having a seizure. I don’t get panic attacks so no need for anxiety about them coming on, and I never worry about having a seizure occur–anytime, any place, whatever.
As soon as I got home, a Valium/Diazepam immediately shoved straight down my throat! It didn’t exactly work, though. I needed a second one in the evening, because I felt like I was becoming completely unhinged. I was going absolutely mad!
For example: Issues in my life bothering me, somehow became magnified. When I was watching TV trying to relax, I was seeing things everywhere in shows that had commonalities with the aforementioned, magnified problems! I beg your pardon? Most assuredly, there is only one reason for all of this. I am clearly, unquestionably, certifiably: insane.
Now THAT’S a bit scary!!!
At that point, time for the heavy artillery. Gravol/Dimenhydrinate. Even THAT wasn’t helping! Then, something occurred at the speed of light. I really needed the Gravol. Massive waves of nausea started crashing into me, over me, under me, through me, you name it. Oh, no. Do a quick “light check.” Oh, no no no!!! Run to the bathroom and pop another pill.
It worked for the pain as I caught it fast enough, but this has been my worst migraine prodrome yet! Prodromes for migraines last anywhere from hours to days. Even another “warning sign” in that I’ve been unusually headachy recently with pain in my neck. I just wrote them off as tension headaches. I always miss my prodromes because they either happen too fast or I interpret the signs and symptoms as something else!
So. How do I “interpret” this? I’ve never had a prodrome that has made me turn into some kind of deranged, berserk, lunatic! Furthermore, one that needs 24/7 monitoring and administration of five Antipsychotics, plus placed in restraints!
Postdrome? I don’t have a clue because what is really killing me (and did last night!) is the nausea. It’s relentless. It just won’t go away, even with the Gravol!!! The Gravol is definitely working on my head as I think I’m floating somewhere around Jupiter at this point. Physiologically it’s working in other ways. I’m all stumbly bumbly and Wonder Cane or my spare is nearby (you never know!) So far, only water and tea are going into me.
This nausea is a bit scary. Okay, maybe not scary but just way too over the top!
Wait a sec’. Moods are off. Other things, too. Shades of post-“ick”tal©? Going back to the seizures I could have been skipping along with them, as well. The very strong possibility of NCSE for me. Non-convulsive Status Epilepticus. NCSE + me = I don’t know I’m seizing–until some weird kind of post-“ick”tal© stuff comes marching through the door?
Is this a bit scary? Oh, whatever. All of this is known so what’s the point. Not a bit scary.
More “a bit scary?” More than a bit scary! Catamenial Migraines. Please, please no. I believe I’m due to get my period any moment now. That’s “Catamenial.” During your period/cycle. There are also Catamenial Seizures. Oh, dear. “Catamenial NCSE?” *would roll eyes but too painful*
The Catamenial Migraines actually fall under some of the signs/symptoms of being perimenopausal. I don’t know if I’m perimenopausal or not, but a few things on the lists are looking highly suspicious.