Another Complex Partial? I’m Supposed to be Getting Better!

I just looked up and saw the deadbolt to my back door open (again!) It leads to my patio.  I’ve been madly running around to see if anything has been moved in my unit; anything has been changed.  At least when I looked outside, I didn’t see any crumpled up balls of paper from my notepad strewn around everywhere!

Does anyone remember those two nights, back to back last summer? The second night, where I was screaming profane, verbal automatisms my neighbour thought two people above him were having a huge fight? Two Complex Partials in a row? After that, I duct taped both doors of my unit to lock myself inside at night.  Does that jar your memory?

I had an appt. yesterday. The temperatures have dropped massively (thank you weather for the migraine last night–and one that’s coming on now!!!) *runs to get a triptan*

Continuing…  Did I poke my head out to check the weather? I tried to run through everything I was doing while getting dressed.  No.  If I had, I would have dressed warmer, as I was freezing when I finally did go outside! Nevertheless, I always lock it!

Since it was so cold, I turned the heat up last night.  However, since it was so hot inside, I removed my pyjama top, socks, and just slept in the bottoms and a T-shirt.  Going outside with no socks, when having a Complex Partial seizure in this weather??? I am always unconscious when I have them, I think I have a pretty high pain threshold, but that would be EXTREME!

Then, I found something.  Oh, dear.  NO! NO! NO!

Certain things must be in order in my life.  This is due to the Asperger’s.  Ironically, I can have a whack of possessions in complete disarray and all over the place, courtesy of my ADD.  I love my comorbidities.  They make managing my life just so much FUN!

What did I find that was “out of place?” My winter boots.  How did I know?

My footwear is always organized, placed straight, even, and also in a left/right position.  Just like your feet.  If there are any laces hanging out, they are tucked into the shoe, boot etc…  Prior to last night, my boots were in this position as I hadn’t worn them in a while.  What did they look like when I found them?

Bloody, hell.  No longer straight, organized and all of the above.  Basically, sideways or diagonal on the mat.  I also take my footwear off in a certain way, if I’m just using my heels to sort of kick or push them off.  I take my right off first, then my left off after.  Most certainly these days, with the epilepsy issues.  My right leg is the weakest.  The Simple partial motor seizures nail it more than my left.

My brain’s slightly “unbalanced.”  Sorry.  Bad epilepsy joke.

Well, the boots were not in the correct position as to how I would take them off.  They were reversed.  They were also remaining in a position that looked like someone had just taken them off–heel to toe.  Crap.  I would never have them just sit there like that! It would drive my positively bonkers! It also explains why my feet didn’t get frostbite?

I have a “theory” regarding Complex Partial seizures.  If they happen in an environment you already know, even if unconscious, you can still be “aware.”  It’s like me putting on my boots to go outside.  It’s also similar as to why I didn’t leap over my patio, that’s about 2-3 storeys above the ground.  However, this is only a “theory.”  It could be a load of garbage.

So, I’m DEFINITELY NOT saying that people shouldn’t be kept safe, and away from any possible dangers–even if they ARE familiar with any surroundings.  Just gently guide them away from anything potentially, or certainly injurious.  Also, remember that just about everyone who has a Complex Partial is unconscious.  They won’t respond to anything.  Except perhaps one thing.

NEVER, NEVER, NEVER  provoke them in any way!!! Push, shove, grab, scream…anything that can cause a stir with them.  People with Complex Partials (and people with epilepsy period) can very sadly be perceived as a person drunk, on drugs etc…  But someone having a Complex Partial is not violent.  Yet, they can become so if provoked.  It happened to me once when unconscious and after I heard what I’d done? I wanted to crawl into a hole and stay there forever!

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